Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Fight With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with severe pain around a single eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are managed with acute therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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